the whole 'where is home' topic i think has been a preoccupation of mine lately. lately, probably meaning in the past few years.

i've noticed that i've grown quite rooted here, quite settled and comfortable. and there is definitely some good to that. on the other hand, though, there is a part of me that likes a good challenge, that does not necessarily want to grow these roots, to feel attached to these four walls around me and the silly habits you grow into you when you spend too much time in the same place. i like to be caught off guard, to feel displaced and i don't know how much of that i experience here really.

you know there are just so many things you take for granted when you are at 'home' (whether spiritually, emotionally and physically). i mean, the mere fact that you have a home is quite beautiful thing in itself, but it is so easy to forget that not everyone gets to experience that.

i wonder, sometimes what makes us want to create those homes. what are the necessary conditions for them to exist. what i would, personally, need to feel at home. i also wonder if one can grow too comfortable to be up for a challenge.

i'm afraid sometimes that i'm getting a bit too close to that. then just feel like doing something bold and outrageous. stuff a bag full of music, letters and photograph, fly half-way across the world and re-route. re-root.